it's been a long time since i have posted but i thought i would start back up. i don't know, maybe it's more for me than it is for anybody. i'm sure most of these posts aren't viewed by, what i like to call, people :-). either way it's something i feel like i need to do for me and want to get consistent again. i was moved today after watching a video on shelleylubben.com of porn stars who have died. it's about a 7 minute video and most of the porn stars died from a suicide overdose, gun shot wound, jumping off a building, or during a scene in one of their movies. i sat moved by it and felt completely heart broken while watching.
i started to think to myself why is porn so intriguing ? why have i struggled with it? why do most guys, if not all guys, want to watch it so bad (this includes christians, ministers, and regular ol joe? i have my own perceptions and answers, but it seems more complicated than just saying, "guys are just guys and we like naked woman". although "guys are just guys and like naked woman" why is porn soooo compelling? there is obviously a need that is being met in the heart of the viewer that keeps him (or her) coming back. let's not forget the spiritual side of this issue too. i am sure that the enemy isn't just sitting by idely concerning porn. clearly "he" is not as statistics show that 50% of ministers are addicted to it. as many ministries have tried to spring up addressing porn, (freedombeginshere.org, xxxchurch.com, shelleylubben.com, jcgirls.com, hookersforjesus.com) the church still hasn't taken this epidemic head on. and until it does it will still be the most devastating thing hitting the church other than apathy.
i know i haven't reached a level of strength that keeps me "holy" all the time, and i know that i am only human. i know that i am "a guy" and i know that if i don't keep myself accountable to my friends that i can and will fail, and have failed.
one thing i know for sure is that God loves peoeple, God loves those who are addicted to porn, God loves those who chose to stay where they are at, and God loves the people on the video screen. and until we let the love of God compel us to reach out to those who are addicted, again the church will have lost an huge spiritual battle. thank God there are ministries like freedombeginshere.org that hits this issue head on. it's far to late to not bring this up now.
if anything people are struggling and can't stop. more importantly those who face addiction do not want to be addicted and, for most, don't know how to be free.
i will talk through this and see if we, if I, can't uncover the answer to the question, "why is porn so intriguing". i am no expert on addiction other than being a guy trying to find these answers. one thing is for sure i will do my best to help others fight through this highly hidden issue the only way i know how, with mercy and grace! thank God for his love and his mercy.
peace
